I understand people's reluctance to provide random strangers w/financial assistance no matter how heart-wrenching their sob story may be due to the fact that we live in a society where scam artists run rampant. I am not looking for someone to just send me cash w/o any proof that it will be used for what I say it will. If there is anyone out there that would be willing to provide financial assistance to two beautiful children whose only "wrongdoing" in their short lives was to be born to a father for whom drugs are more important and a mother who continued to stay regardless of the flagrant disregard for her and the numerous beatings, lying, cheating and stealing; to be born to a mother who allowed another individual to beat her down physically, mentally and emotionally so systematically on a daily basis for numerous years because he knew he could and that I had no other recourse. It wasn't until he almost laid a hand on my son that I got the courage to speak up and leave. I stayed in a car for days w/2 children! There are no shelters where I can obtain safety for my children w/o subjecting them to other horrors.
Please don't turn your back on them, if you are able and willing to provide financial assistance, you could make payments directly to the agencies, I never have to have any type of contact or control over the money. I'd even be willing to sign a legal document stating that any money lent will be paid back by a certain set sum every month upon obtaining employment. Aside from financial assistance, ANY help or donations either items themselves or gift cards would be so appreciated. I am begging for my children. School starts very soon and my son has NO clothes. This is not an exaggeration, right now he is rotating through 5 outfits, and they are summer outfits. He has no clothes for the upcoming fall and winter (which if you live in New England, you know can get brutal), he has no sneakers. He wants to play sports but alas, there is no money. He tells me all the time that when he prays at night he prays the Lord to bless me and let me find an angel here on Earth to assist us and help me get a job and he says he prays that this year at school when friends ask to come over, he can say yes. He says that he couldn't say yes last year because then his friends would make fun of him and not want to play with him anymore because he doesn't have any toys. Then he says Mom is that selfish to pray for, will God think I'm a a bad person. IT KILLS me, literally shatters my heart. He is barely 7 years old!
Luckily we have been blessed by a member of his family w/a safe place to live but we only have about 45 days more if I can not start paying rent beginning Sept. 1 (which if at least employed by then may be extended). While generous, my children still have nothing. We sleep on a twin mattress, which is terribly unsafe for an almost 6 mo. baby and not exactly suitable for an almost 7 yr old BOY to be sleeping w/his mom. Additionally, as I've stated I am responsible for paying the utilities and am now in danger of having BOTH my gas and electric turned off. I owe $235 or so for gas and about $250 for electric. I am not looking for a free ride. Aside from providing my kids w/stability, the basic necessities and love, what I WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING, IS TO WORK (I'd scrub toilets at this point). Again, I am begging for my children. What I need is to find a job, HOWEVER, IT IS A VICIOUS, VICIOUS, NEVER ENDING CYCLE...In order to apply for and find employment, I need a way for potential employers to contact me and I need a way to get there and back. I have a car but my license is suspended and will cost $1500 to re-instate, I have been driving around on a suspended license for several years now but can no longer afford to do so as I got pulled over the other day w/my children in the car but the Lord must have been looking down on my because I knew the cop and he allowed me to go w/a warning. However, if that happens again (while I am a very good, careful, cautious driver, my car has a rejection sticker, which automatically gives police a reason to pull me over), not only will I be arrested and go to jail, my children will be taken away and once that happens, considering the predicament I'm in, it would be an eternity, if ever, before I could regain custody! I can't take that chance! While I have an email for employers to contact me at, that is for my ultimate dream job, in an office. At this point, I'll take ANYTHING but for places like Dunkin Donuts and grocery stores I need another method of contact, I need a phone. I could probably afford a monthly no contract service like through Virgin mobile, but I can not afford to get the actual phone (and no I'm not someone who needs something like a new iphone, although while any smartphone would be nice for practical purposes, like having internet access so i can receive emails and search for jobs at ANY time w/o having to rely on the library or finding a place w/free wifi, I realize that that isn't necessarily feasible). I need a place to live (which thank God I have for the next 45 days or so) and gas for hot water and for the stove to cook the little food I do have and suitable clothing in order to be considered and not look like I live in a cardboard box. YET IN ORDER TO OBTAIN ALL THIS, I NEED AN INCOME AND TO RECEIVE AN INCOME I NEED EMPLOYMENT AND TO OBTAIN EMPLOYMENT...and round and round we go.
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE HELP US! There is nothing you could do that would be too small. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE.